Comfort in memories...

Being alone is one of the saddest states of being there is. To be alone with your thoughts and only your thoughts is one of the scariest things to do. That's why so many humans strive for the comfort of friends or even just the company of a beloved pet to cure this. But when one is truly alone with their thoughts it is when they learn who they are and connect with their inner being.
I am feeling this today. It started when I had this incredible over whelming sense of loneliness, and I started to hurt, I actually felt the pain of being completely alone. It suddenly dawned on me, that I need to learn to love being with my own thoughts to be able to be comfortable with myself as a whole. Its a terribly hard task to just sit alone and think to yourself. But it is one of the best things for someone to do when they are feeling lonely or simply because they need to work situations out. I have found out that I need to write my thoughts down to understand what it is I'm thinking. Others my need to simply take a candlelit bath and still their mind, or maybe you have to draw it and visually see what you're thinking. Whatever it is that enables you to actually think, do it. Everyday. Cause when you put it on the back burner, it will continue to boil up over the edge until it comes poring out over the sides. So just take the extra ten minutes before bed and think about the day, think about how you reacted to situations, think about how you might have impacted someone else's life today, think about all those you love and you will realize that you are not alone. I'm not just talking about romantic love, but paternal love as well. Every person that you have loved at one point will always be with you even if it is just in your memory. It will always be there to comfort you.
Every time I start to feel alone, I think about my family and how great it is to have them in my life. And each time I think about them, I send them white light and I continue on knowing that I am not alone..